26A- Celebrating Failure

My Failure

I would say that my largest failure of the semester is not releasing any music. I have been making and producing music since I was a freshman in high school and one of my largest goals right now is to release a project of music. I told myself this semester would be the time that I would release some music, but I have yet to release music and it is my largest regret. The main reason why I feel as if I have not been able to release music is fear. I have taken days of work and deleted it immediately because I am afraid of the reception I will get. This is an issue that I am working on but multiple times I have deleted completed work because I was afraid it was not good. Another reason why I have not been able to release music is because I am currently going through a writer’s block. It feels almost like I am not motivated to work on music because I am not getting any new ideas.            What I learned from this situation is to give yourself time. Sometimes we get caught up in how fast life moves and we give ourselves these expectations that we feel we have to live up to. Sometimes it helps it stop take a deep breath and not put unnecessary pressure. It's good to keep some pressure on yourself to the point where it makes you competitive. But stressing yourself to the point where you aren’t able to function is redundant to making progress. Another thing I learned is to take things one step at a time but give 100 percent to that one step. Sometimes when we fail its easy to get trapped in our own minds and stay negative/ self-depreciative. But it is important to keep moving forward even if it is a crawl. For a very long-time failure terrified me, it scared me because I placed the world on my shoulders when the issues, I was scared of failing were simple. That was because I was in my own mind. I now handle failure as motivation.  In life failure is something that can either break you or strengthen you, the key is how you use it. I have accepted that failure is a part of life but, I put my best foot forward towards doing the right thing so even if I fail I know I gave my 100 percent.